by cg on October 29, 2006

The really big news today is that yesterday, on our Fry’s trip, John and I picked up a sweet 20-inch Apple Cinema display. Linda has transitioned in the past few months from a mostly TV viewer to a mostly Net surfer, resulting in me being largely kicked off the dual G5 Mac with it’s 23-inch display.
Banished, I’ve been hanging out on a Mac Mini and a 64-bit AMD Linux box, KVM’d to a 17-inch screen. Realizing that the trend was not positive for me returning to the fast G5 and its giant screen, I snagged a clean open-box 20-inch display at Fry’s (for $50 less than Apple Store). John figured, under the circumstances, spouse wouldn’t even comment (she didn’t). Given that the other option was a $70,000 Porsche Cayman, think we all got off easy this time around.
The Intel Mini runs like a charm, and the 20-inch display supports most of what I could do on the 23-inch screen. We also cleaned up this corner of the World HQ: it was hard to retire the hand-built AMD-64 box, but OS X is my favorite *NIX clone…
by cg on October 29, 2006
It’s Sunday morning, and a pleasant day stretches ahead. I’ve got a bunch of projects planned: some writing, a much-needed cleanup of the ‘World HQ’ and moving my secret blog to a public URL. Michael Matze, our family counselor who has helped me through past difficulties, has encouraged me to work through current trials by writing about them, including commissioning an essay.
Michael’s a smart and capable counselor: the writing has been great therapy: a good way to start processing the many bewidering events that dropped abruptly into my life beginning 20 days ago. The secret blog is where I have, on the days of first seizures, ambulance rides, emergency rooms and scary diagnoses and procedures, just poured out the thoughts and feelings racing through my mind on each respective day as I began the struggle to cope with my newly-revealed path. It’s really helped to get things out, and down in a concrete way, as honestly as I can, and then to move on, one day at a time, one goal at a time on the best course I can find.
I used Firefox to export the blog quickly in a form I could publish on gulker.com. It lacks some of the pretty graphics et al seen on the LAN. Many links point to our firewalled, non-routable private network, so, of course are broken at the moment. I’ll try to doll it up a bit, but the important stuff is the thoughts and words, starting on October 9. Offered in the hopes that others who find themselves on similar paths will find some comfort in knowing that they are not alone (and feel free to drop me a line)…
by cg on October 29, 2006
Please know that I am all but overwhelmed by the kindness that daily comes my way in the form of phone calls, email, blog comments, mail and postcards (not to mention the wonderful meals that have shown up on our doorstep a couple times now). From (literally) Berlin to Tokyo friends and colleagues from current and former lives have sent prayers, encouragement and all manner of good wishes: this has been very welcome comfort in trying times for both Linda and I. Please understand if I can’t respond to every email and blog comment under the circumstances: know that I’ve read, and am grateful for, every kind word. Thank you from the bottom of my heart…