It’s Sunday morning, and a pleasant day stretches ahead. I’ve got a bunch of projects planned: some writing, a much-needed cleanup of the ‘World HQ’ and moving my secret blog to a public URL. Michael Matze, our family counselor who has helped me through past difficulties, has encouraged me to work through current trials by writing about them, including commissioning an essay.
Michael’s a smart and capable counselor: the writing has been great therapy: a good way to start processing the many bewidering events that dropped abruptly into my life beginning 20 days ago. The secret blog is where I have, on the days of first seizures, ambulance rides, emergency rooms and scary diagnoses and procedures, just poured out the thoughts and feelings racing through my mind on each respective day as I began the struggle to cope with my newly-revealed path. It’s really helped to get things out, and down in a concrete way, as honestly as I can, and then to move on, one day at a time, one goal at a time on the best course I can find.
I used Firefox to export the blog quickly in a form I could publish on gulker.com. It lacks some of the pretty graphics et al seen on the LAN. Many links point to our firewalled, non-routable private network, so, of course are broken at the moment. I’ll try to doll it up a bit, but the important stuff is the thoughts and words, starting on October 9. Offered in the hopes that others who find themselves on similar paths will find some comfort in knowing that they are not alone (and feel free to drop me a line)…
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Blogging is great at quickly and (relatively) easily sharing the detail of personal experiences with anyone else on the internet, giving them the benefit of what you’ve gone through. It’s wonderful and brave you’re doing this for such personal and difficult experiences.
Chris –
As I read through your newly-public diary blog, I feel an envy about masteries you have achieved . . . I won’t compare and contrast (I look forward to doing that someday), but please tap into the strength that comes from knowing you are a champion. I consider it a privilege to have some inklings of your history that tell me that.
Among my hopes for you is that your knowledge of your triumphs so far will help sustain you through trials too soon to come and will help inspire you to find new triumphs to aspire towards no matter what may come.
‘We all have secret lives’ – one of life’s verities. The next few days are surely yours in a privacy and secrecy that I hope you will treasure and share using pen to paper – or the digital equivilant thereof – not just for and with us, who care for you, but for the special and unique future that is also part of your essence.
(. . . and don’t forget to vote absentee.)
With genuine love and a sincere wish to hear from you soon -
Greg
The absentee ballots are already here, and to the extent that I have any say, a certain party which has demonstrated a shameless disregard for the fine and noble traditions and laws of our Republic is going down, hard…
Fist in the air ! Right on !!